Ever feel like you’re not trying hard enough? Have you ever accused yourself of not trying hard enough, and then realized that you don’t care?
That silly Daily Post prompt! Do you know what it wants me to do? It wants me to find an uninteresting news story and talk about how it relates to my life. The problem is, that I find all these stories interesting; maybe it’s because I’m kind of an information whore… But I’m not judging myself, it’s called being realistic. The fact of the matter is, there is no news out there that I don’t find interesting unless it has something to do with sports, and even then I don’t even know how to find sports stories. I mean, I don’t get the newspaper, I have no clue how to Google anything about sports . . .
. . . yeah . . .
So instead of that, I’ll talk about my experience so far with NaNoWriMo! Now, we’re officially eight days into NaNoWriMo and I’m supposed to have something like 12,000 words by the end of the day. I don’t really have that much right now, but the weekend is coming, and I’m going to get in some intensive writing pretty soon here. I’m not beating myself up about it; rather, I’m giving myself enough space to think, enough room to do what I have to do.
To be honest, I was stressing out yesterday. I was thinking about how little time I have to get this done on a daily basis. The daily score is 1,667 words, but you don’t have to meet that on a daily basis. It’s just kind of a benchmark, if you will. This morning I made a spreadsheet in order to track my word count; but that’s just for my own purposes. Seems like everyone loves a tracker these days! Again, there’s no pressure.
And why the enlightened attitude, when I have so clearly set myself upon this task? When in previous years I said I would do it and I never followed through? Basically, because I’ve made some discoveries already.
Right now I am a little over 4,000 words in (which yes, puts me at only about a third of where I’m supposed to be) but I’m already past that point to which I have had it planned out in my mind, for the past four or five years that I’ve had this story in my head. I’ve figured out that when you write past that point where you would’ve quit before, things have this tendency of generating on their own. I mean, here I am, in literary No Man’s Land, and I’ve had a character just appear all on their own… a side character, but nonetheless a character I previously knew about; I have had a mother go out on a selfless goose chase that I never saw coming; I’ve had a father, who I had thought was going to be this, that, and the other… well, I don’t even have him in the story. It turns out that he’s not even there, and I’m okay with that. Why is he not there? Well, we will find out if that’s important.
So in short, this story is now writing itself, and that really excites me. I can’t wait to get up in the morning, make coffee, and sit down and just start banging out some words.
My only issue right now is that I’ll sit down, and I won’t be able to formulate the words correctly. This morning I had about an hour and a half to two hours to write. And I only wrote 400 words. Do you know why? Because every time I wanted to say something I couldn’t get it to come out right. I understand that this is an “internal editor” thing; and that’s something I do have to deal with. I have to get in the habit of getting it down, no matter how it sounds in my head, and moving past that point so that I can keep making progress on this book.
So I’d really like to hear from some of you: we all have these internal editors. How do yours get in your way, and how do you defeat them? Or is it something that you’re still struggling with? Anything goes; tell us about it in the comments.
This post was prompted by today’s Daily Post prompt.
- NaNoWriMo Tip #6: Don’t Think Like an Editor (Yet) (mediabistro.com)
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